The Addiction Project.

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To my knowledge, I’ve never had a true addiction to anything. But, if I had to choose one thing that I’m definitely hooked on, it’s chocolate…without question. I simply cannot think of the last day that I went without some amount of chocolate, or even the last morning that I woke up and did not crave it. Chocolate is a staple for me, in the same way that maple syrup was a staple for Will Ferrell in the movie, Elf.

While enrolled in my MFT program, I have come to discover that a class during my next semester will arrive with the ultimate challenge. Since I will undoubtedly be working with individuals who struggle from addiction in my practice, I will be given the task of giving up something that I feel addicted to in my own personal life. I will (in theory) gain first-hand of experience of what it feels like to quit an addiction. This hiatus from my addiction will last the entire duration of the semester, and I imagine I will be writing a paper or presenting on my experience of weening off my addiction at the end of the class.

In preparation for the commencement of this assignment, I have been attempting to get EVEN MORE addicted to chocolate than I already am. Not only have the holidays been a good excuse to turn into a sugar gremlin, but I wanted to get the most accurate experience during this little experiment [without having to start smoking or heavily drinking], by making it as difficult as possible for me to quit my chocolate craze.

In the process of feeding my addiction to chocolate, I’m sure that I’ve gained upwards of 8 pounds….but I honestly don’t know, because I’m afraid to look. I can see a difference in my arms and stomach (luckily, its winter so I can layer & bundle), but what I can’t see concerns me even more. I’m sure that my health and body are not thrilled with the extra sugar I’ve been indulging in. It has been somewhat sickening how little I have tuned into my subconscious lately and resisted the willpower I’d normally exercise in making food choices. Mind you, I have continued to work out 3-4 days per week despite my increased chocolate intake–but it appears that the chocolate diet is winning nonetheless.

Come January, I plan to begin my withdrawal. Although I don’t formally begin the new school semester until Jan. 17th, I think it’s time I begin. Gone will be the days of chocolate consumption, and I have no doubt that my body will feel like its suffering. Although, I feel certain that my conscience will be clearer and my mind more at ease. I plan to undergo some setbacks (as most addicts do), and I’m certain I will have moments of weakness….especially when the peer pressure kicks in. At the end of this experiment, I hope to be able to better empathize with the struggles that addicts face in weening off their vice. From what I understand, addiction can be an atrocious demon. It is truly not a condition to emulate — unless it is for the greater good of yourself and/or others….and in this case, I like to believe that it is.

5 more days of sugar, then more updates to come.

Wish me luck.

xx allie

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December Faves

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Happy Wednesday Everyone!

Hope everyone is having a good day.

I just got demolished by a final…but it’s okay–time to study for the next one! I forgot how draining it is to study for finals. I’m done with 3 of 4 now, and I swear, I’m not cut out for this. My brain is slacking on everyday things this week, as I’ve been diverting all of my mental energy on psychopathology, research methods, family systems therapy techniques, and psychotherapy theories. Help.Me. I am counting down the hours until I’m done with tomorrow’s class and I can finally celebrate the Winter break and my birthday weekend! No more school for another month! WOOHOO.

Anywaysssss—

This Christmas season is an unusual one for California. As you might be aware, it’s been a white Christmas season….and I mean white with ash. If you live in an affected area, then you have probably seen the ash layering the streets, your car, your roof, etc. This makes me so sad. There are many people I know that have lost their homes or have been evacuated as a result of the fires. I, for one, truly miss FRESH AIR. Tempted to take a hiatus from California and head to Washington for a nice, long weekend. I could really use some forest beauty and R&R. I’ve always wanted to be spontaneous one day and just UP and GO. Maybe I’ll do it this winter break….

I’ve been meaning to write a blog post for A WHILE, and unfortunately I have not had the time to sit down and just DO IT. But today, since I am braindead from my final a few hours ago, I figured I’d sit down and finally write one before getting back to my studies.

Happy December Folks! Here are a few of my DECEMBER FAVES!!!

  1. ADVENT CALENDARS: If you know me at all, then you know this is a Keyser Family tradition. There is no December without an advent calendar. Why do we love these so much? Because you’re guaranteed chocolate every day. Also because it’s a countdown to Christmas. Need I say more? I get mine from Trader Jos. They never fail.img_8074-e1513225042235.png
  2. WINTER SCENTED CANDLES: YES YES YES. The one I’m burning this precise moment is “Evergreen” scented and it’s from Bath & Body Works. It literally smells like a forest of Christmas trees in my room right now. They have a ton of different scents to choose from, and it’s so much fun to explore them all! I always aim for the Soy wax candles..since they emit a healthier smoke into the air than just your average candle.
  3. HOT CHOCOLATE: I don’t feel guilty about drinking empty calories if it’s during the holiday season (or lets be honest…pretty much ever). If I enjoy the drink…then no regrets. If you’re in the market for a fan.tas.tic hot chocolate, then look no further then Starbucks Salted Caramel Hot Chocolate drink. (disclaimer–you don’t even have to like caramel to LOVE this drink)
  4. CHRISTMAS MOVIES: This might be the only time that I recommend Hallmark movies…but if you’re going to watch them at all…then I guess it’s permissible in December of all months. You must also watch “The Grinch”, “The Santa Clause”, “Elf”, and “The Holiday”. I just purchased a 50 inch HD 4K tv for my room, so you can bet that I’ll be spending my entire winter break snuggled up binge watching everything that exists.
  5. BABY CHRISTMAS TREES: Trader Jos comes in clutch with these too. I bought a baby  tree for my room, equipped with silver confetti sparkles for decoration. It is literally adorable on a bedside table and doesn’t take up much space at all! I think mine cost about $3…but they have a special “Grump” tree that is SO freaking cute. I recommend it.

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6. STRING LIGHTS: These add the perfect holiday touch to any room. I found mine at Target for only $5 (batteries not included). They are super cute, perfect length for my windows, and have little rose gold bells attached.

7. STOCKING STUFFERS: Stockings are (hands down) my favorite part about Christmas morning. It’s so much fun to explore your stocking…because every goody is such a surprise! Some ideas for stuffers: nail polish, face masks, little gift cards to Starbucks or In-N-Out (if you’re Californian), chocolate, fuzzy socks, lip gloss, hand creams, etc.! Be creative… and maybe even a little quirky.

Okay that’s all the time I have for today guys. Keep your eyes out for more posts….as I am about to have SO MUCH MORE TIME!

xx

allie